Spiders from Heaven: A Poetic Journey into Middle-Aged Motherhood
“Here I am starting this journal about possibly adopting and I can’t even put ‘Adoption’ as the file name. What am I afraid of? That someone might look in my computer and think I want a child to love?”
So begins the author’s personal story of adoption and motherhood. A forty-three year old woman living in a small university town in the Midwest, she had more than enough to do with a teaching career, travel, art, house and garden, and a somewhat demanding cat. When a close friend sends her an article about a couple bringing home a little girl from China, she realizes she must rethink the possibility of having children, a dream she thought she’d left behind.
Through journal entries, letters, emails, and poems spanning 15 years, she recounts the ups and downs of her decision making, the adoption process, and single parenting. Told with wit, sensitivity, and compelling honesty, Spiders from Heaven immediately brings the reader into her journey, a journey full of doubts and setbacks, but always with the underlying belief that, in the end, one must follow one’s heart.
“Spiders from Heaven reveals those inner thoughts and emotions that all mothers-to-be and mothers have but rarely share or admit. Ann’s story is a reflection from her emails, journal entries, and poetry – a special combination of writings that is original, sensitive, and compelling. With loving honesty and tenderness, Ann shares her turmoil in planning to become a single parent by adopting international children. She goes on to share the perplexing world of motherhood including the worries, the dreams, and her caring and nurturing relationship with her girls. A good read for any mother and those who care about mothers, but especially meaningful for anyone who is anticipating adoption – also important for those who counsel adoptive parents.” —Margaret Holmberg, President for CT Association for Infant Mental Health
About the Author
Ann Carter is a working artist and writer living with her two daughters and a variety of animals on a small acreage located in the Flint Hills of central Kansas. For more information on her art and writing, visit annlcarter.com. Watch a short documentary about her current life, “Building a Nest.”